Jennifer Lopez Reveals Why She Ended Her Seven-Year-Old Marriage To Marc Anthony

Jennifer Lopez reveals in her upcoming memoir,’True Love'(photo left) why she ended her seven year marriage with ex hubby Marc Anthony;

‘As I sat there getting made up, my heart was beating out of my chest and I felt like I couldn’t breathe… I became consumed with anxiety,’ ‘What was happening to me? I leaped from my chair and said to my dear manager Benny Medina, “Benny, something is happening! I feel like I’m going crazy.” My mom was there and she rushed to my side too. ‘It was one of those moments when you’re so scared you can’t even scream. In a blur of fear and panic, I looked at Benny and my mother and blurted out the words: “I don’t think I can be with Marc anymore.” Then I burst into tears.
‘The thing I feared more than anything in the world. I collapsed into their arms and began to sob.’‘Anybody looking from the outside in would have thought my life was great,’ writes J-Lo. ‘I had a husband and two beautiful children. I was on American Idol and my new single On The Floor had gone to number one all over the world.

‘What people didn’t know was that life really wasn’t that good. My relationship was falling apart and I was terrified.’  ‘I’ve never gotten a black eye or busted lip but I’ve been in relationships where I have been abused in one way or another: mentally, emotionally, verbally,’ she reveals. ‘I know what it feels like for your soul to be diminished by the way your loved one is treating you.’It took me years to figure out that, in that kind of relationship the intensity and the conflict are really coming from two people.

‘Because every day you don’t walk out that door, every day you accept things in a partner and in yourself, is a day that you’re saying it’s okay.’